Friday, February 17, 2012

trying to treasure the moment.

So, speaking of the treasures we pour our hearts into --

(notice the skeptical raised eyebrow -- already her mama's girl in so many ways)

I've decided to take a very small step back from this blog. Since I changed URLs back in September and decided to start blogging to cure myself of desperate loneliness and stagnation as a new mother, I've been pretty faithful about posting every weekday and even some weekends. And it has done amazing, wonderful things for my soul -- truly. Especially the part about "meeting" and connecting with all of you. But I'm starting to feel myself being pulled a bit too thin, what with trying to start my shop, work towards my personal goals, and keep up with my very mobile, very curious, very adorable almost-9-month-old: the near-and-dear-to-my-hearts that my treasure trove of time and mental energy and love should be directed towards. So the every-single-day posting requirement is going by the wayside, at least for now. I'll still be here very often, maybe even posting daily if I feel like it, and reading your own blogs just as often as usual -- but having a daily writing assignment no longer seems like a necessity for my sanity (and, in fact, is starting to feel quite the opposite).

Anyway, you probably won't even notice and certainly won't mind -- this public service announcement is really more for my sake and my own issues with guilt. :)

And while we're on the topic of goals, here's a quick update on those pesky little birthday resolutions, in case you're wondering:

1. Learn how to embrace the beauty and wonder of today rather than wishing it would hurry up and be tomorrow or somehow get back to what it was like yesterday. (okay, I can't really cross this off yet, but that felt soooo good.) -- totally still a work in progress, but I feel like I'm getting there!
2. Start my Etsy shop. For reals this time. This means making a list of all of the minutiae that have been holding me back and then working my way through them -- and writing about it here to keep myself honest. -- I've been working hard on this one, but I still have quite a ways to go before my target date of March 20th.
3. Figure out what in the world to do about whether I am going back to work next fall. (This might be a little bit of an unfair resolution, as I'm required to do this by February whether I like it or not -- but, again, crossing things off a list is so cathartic!) -- yep, I've decided. Check back next week for more.
4. Write a letter to my grandmother every week. She doesn't have a lot to look forward to each day due to her struggles with Lewy Body Dementia and she used to send me the most wonderful letters and packages so I want to return the favor while I still can. -- I've been faithfully writing, and writing a letter every day this month to keep up with this challenge, too.
5. Learn how to use my brand new DSLR so my blog looks the way I want it to. (Have I mentioned that my husband is super dreamy? Thanks for the best present ever, J!) -- Can you tell I'm getting a tiny, tiny bit better? I never allow myself to use the automatic setting, if that means anything...
6. Purge our house of all of the things we don't need. Just like with #2, this is going to require a lot of smaller steps first, but I am determined to get it done. -- Sloooooooowly.
7. Go on a trip with L that isn't just to our parents' houses. And go on a trip without L. (gulp!) -- Not even close.
8. Make some meaningful connections in my small town and in the blogosphere. -- I like to think so!
9. Have a lot more moments like these. -- I've only gotten really, truly frustrated with L twice since this post. I think that's progress, don't you?

Happy weekend, all, and thanks for being along for the ride!


  1. I have so many things to say about this post:

    1) I often want to write so much, and I tell myself "Self, you will write at least 3 times this week!" but then it never happens. Because life is happening and I almost always forget to blog about it.

    2)I don't remember the last time I wrote a letter. I'm going to write one this weekend. I think it will be nice! Now, who to?

    3) I've had a dream to be able to make money selling something I've created for a long time. But what specifically? This is my hang-up. Not that I can't make beautiful things, but that I can't pinpoint what I want to focus on.

    4)I love getting rid of junk. It feels SO good. I do it frequently, yet we always have MORE MORE MORE. Ugh.

    5) Meaningful connection? If it makes you feel good, I'm letting you know that I thoroughly have enjoyed your comments on my blog posts. I get excited: someone's actually reading and processing what I write! Thank you!

  2. Glad your able to cross some stuff off of your birthday resolutions list! and that you will be taking a bit of a break! I don't know how you were able to have a post up everyday, I have so much trouble with that.

  3. I know the feeling! It must be that time of year or something. Good luck with the Etsy shop & the rest of your list! xo

  4. I pulled back/ stepped away for a week or two last month, and it was so good for my soul! Now, I'm back into regular blogging, but feeling refreshed about it. For me, it was a good decision! I hope you get reinvigorated, as well.

  5. Totally understandable! (Obviously I have been doing the same thing with my blog lately, although maybe not completely intentional...) Sometimes it is so exhausting to feel the need to document life's little details for people other than yourself, like you have to fulfill a certain expectation. Enjoy your time away, and I will absolutely look forward to your posts, whenever they might be!